Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Them's fightin' words....

I gave up fussin' and fightin' a long time ago... my last voluntary hoo~hah left me hidin' in the dog house, literally. Thank God I'm skinny. There were cuss words and accusations. One ice cold beer propelling it's liquid soul across the room. Splash! Right on target. "Now, I'm in your face" were the last words I remember dripping from his chin. I ran......

That was over twenty years ago.

I don't like noise or commotion. Except for Led Zepplin. I've lived through a few world wars in the living room, the street, in nightmares come true, and I've survived. Long enough to choose peace. I've never raised my right hand and volunteered again, but I've been there, in the middle of mahem, begging, pleading....waiting.... I remember, recite, the words my Father taught me "wage your battles well"....and whisper them over and over again, worry beads under my breath, when anger show's it's yellow face.....

I'm a chicken, actually.

Fightin' frightens me. Things are said that can never ever be erased. Faces are made, expressions frozen forever like Superman, waiting for just the right moment to come flashing back.....haunted deja vue. Doors are slammed. And sometimes windows break.......

I need the beach......
And a podium....

Peace~love..........

34 comments:

david mcmahon said...

I know exactly what you mean ....

Sandy Kessler said...

""I've got all the time in the world to love.."

justacoolcat said...

Great post and I love the picture. Now where's my beach and podium?

Princess Pointful said...

I'm a chicken, too. The idea of getting swept up like that is a little unbearable to me.

singleton said...

david....right? Amen, amen, amen!

Sandy....Bless you sweet girl, Cupid's sending you love tomorrow!

Suchacoolcat....That pic is from last summer.....feelin' the peace! Needin' it again, friend! Do you think they sell podiums on Ebay? :)

princess....we're birds of a feather!

Peace~love my friends
It's priceless

kj said...

my position, singleton:

come at me and i'm steppin' right out of the way. you can scream at yourself instead...

plus, anyone who won't/can't try to work it out with me is too tough for my sensitive skin....

nice post, girl.

BarnGoddess said...

well written post.

I agree!

Anonymous said...

oh baby I am right with you!! beside you, behind you and in front of you! "get mad, get strong,wipe your hands, shake it off, then you stand!!!" rascal flatts!! love you!!

The Electric Orchid Hunter said...

"The life of man, solitary, poor, nasty, brutish, and short." - Thomas Hobbes, 1651

It's competition, diffidence and glory, the causes of all conflict in the world. If we could all just relax a little - life's far too short to spend it waging wars.

singleton said...

KJ....I second you, girl....Send them to the mirror!

barngoddess...thank you, and welcome to the parade....We girls gotta stick together! :)

Kimbies....I love you, too! And yes, you have always been in front of me, beside me, behind me....Always....We are Family! Thank you for catching me when I fall....ILYSVVM

Electric....Age old wisdom.....Clink! Just give me peace......

Peace~love my friends
It's so very very worth it.....

Ultra Toast Mosha God said...

Hmm.

Unsettling overtones abound here.

I don't like fighting either.

Sandy Kessler said...

I stay a forever Valentine .. Watch me show the love sandy thanks

she said...

singtome: -this is just so good, perfect and wonderful

every word.

and that's exactly what we need more of: words. your words.

podium on the beach. love the visual

today i celebrate your strength and courage to leave conflict behind.. find.. and then embrace peace

and inspire others to do the same

"to peace!" love, ~s.

singleton said...

ultra.....Yup! I'm hanging a new moon in the sky tonight, perking up the picture!

Sandy....ta!dah! peace~love, my friend!

She...:) Oh!, the world so doesn't want me to put my hand's on an ole hand me down podium.....I just might really truly park it in the sand and start preachin' the peace! Much love, friend

Peace~love friends
Pass it on....
Believe....

eric1313 said...

I love this post.

I feel the same way. I'd rather walk away than join someone in the stupid dance of violence.

But when I was young, I was a little too chicken. I had to learn to stand up for myself by myself, as dad was gone and mom wasn't good with things like that. And I've run with it, even to the point of my own detriment at times. But I've never raised a hand in anger or thrown something at someone in my life. I've never name called in any kind of maliciousness. I'd rather die than hurt a person.

Truthfuly, I'd rather smoke a joint with them! Maybe have a beer (I hate beer, but when in Rome...), and try to steer the words toward a friendly territory.

I understand you so much.

Miss ya, you know.

I hope we can porch party soon.

And yes, I did get a care package in thw mail. I haven't been home yet to see all the treasure you sent me, but I know it will be good when I get there.

p&l and know that you're on my mind.

Sometimes Saintly Nick said...

Well said.

Max-e said...

Hi Singleton, I know waht you mean. I don't pick fights or look for for them, but will never back down if someone has a go at me or my family. So often I wish I had just walked away instead responding.
Rather give me peace.
Have a great weekend

Scott from Oregon said...

I like a little tussle now and then. Keeps the blood pumpin'!!

Don't know about throwing away a perfectly good beer, though.

Stick to wrastling on the carpet or the couch...

sean said...

Quiet! OK, listen up listen up, ehhhhhhh, I forget what I was goin' to say.
"All my pictures have fallen from the wall where I placed them yesterday," (Neil)....... I stand up to say somethin', and I just get blown away ........ "get out of town I think I'll get out of town."
;-) ;-)

Maithri said...

Oh Let me be part....

of this seaside congregation

that bow to your beauty
and open their hearts
to your peace...

Bid it, and the storm will be stilled...

I believe...

Love and peace friend, Maithri

Camplin said...

Ramble On Heartbreaker, I Can't Quit You Baby Since I've Been Loving You In the Light In the Evening Going to California. What Is and Should Never Be: Communication Breakdown Wearing and Tearing Whole Lotta of Love.
The Song Remains the Same.

No said...

I'm still in fighter mode automatic; wish it would go away soon!

Any suggestions...seriously?

No said...

How do you quite loving someone who made you feel so loved?

That is my question of the day.

mindy said...

i've done the hiding thing.. not in dog house.. but, under a car...that too was 20 years ago.. and i won't do it ever again. :)
xo

No said...

Under the car!!! Can't say I've done that before; I like this when we all share our stories....thank you!

singleton said...

Eric....I had to learn to stand up for myself, too, so I know.... And sometime in the last twenty years, I learned that sometimes, standing up is walking away.....
whispering Free......
and it's sometimes harder to do than throwing a punch, or a word....
and almost always,
I feel better after.....
Hope the job, the car, the visit, is going well friend, Miss you, too! Porch party on the calendar.......

sometimes saintly....thank you. Sometimes you've just gotta say it....

Max-E.....Oh, let someone come at my loved ones, and I'm a Mama Tiger.....I know the feeling! As for the other commotion, I wish I knew then, what I know now....."in the end, peace wins".....

Peace~love my friends
Give 'em wings

singleton said...

Scott....I threw a baked potatoe once, too! Ahhh, confessions of a wild one! No more, though..... I'm too old for fussin'.....And I've yet to see it win....:)

sean...."yeah, outa town, outa town....where it's quiet and this isn't goin' down....." Call me the runaway girl, but I know how to get outa Dodge......P.S. watch for the mailman!

Camplin....OK, you got me wanting to put on Zep......what is and.....:)
Music to learn by......

Peace~love my friends
I'll take it anyday!

singleton said...

Maithri....
I think if you stood on your side of the sea
and I on mine.....
And you preached
Love
and I preached
Peace
the winds would
make music.....
And we could call
it
Harmony....
Sometimes I wonder if people are afraid of peace and love? If they're too big to see it, hear it, feel it, too caught up in the moment, to listen to the echo.....

No...Oh, girl, you could put me on the podium bigtime.... I don't think you ever give up on love. If someone loved you good, and you them, and it ends by chance, or hurricane, or dotted lines, you embrace the memories, the lessons, the meant-to-be's....and you go on. The butterfly effect..... You take the gifts they gave you and expound on them, if you've really truly loved and been loved back, you've been gifted. There are millions and zillions of people who may have never experienced that...And for those of us who have, if only for a moment.......we've been gifted. I'm wishing you peace, friend, and wings.....

Mindy....Thank God we were skinny! And Amen! Never Again!

Peace~love my friends
Say the words.....

No said...

Thank you, my friend; I'm mending my wings....waiting for flight...

singleton said...

There you go! And the skies are endless
and butterflies are free....
Cheers, sweetie.....

Orhan Kahn said...

I used to thrive on fighting now I enjoy conflict resolution.

Loved this: I don't like noise or commotion. Except for Led Zepplin.

singleton said...

Orhan... "Conflict resolution", i like that.....in my world that would be "The Peacekeeper"......
And I'll clink! you to that anyday!
"In the end, peace wins".....
until then, Turn the Radio Up! :)

karoline said...

yes...choose your battles wisely...life is for the loving...

great post sweety..

k:))

singleton said...

karoline...Clink! "Life is for the loving"!

peace~love my friend