Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Dear John....

Once upon a time….

I lived another life. I dressed up and paraded around in pointy toed high heels and wore perfumed matching pantsuits and pretended to be an Administrator. And then I woke up one day, hacking and coughing from the Channel #5, with bunions on my toes, and pulled my T-shirts out of the closet and my love beads out of my bra…and said “This is Me…”

He didn’t fire me.

He cringed a little. Grimaced, maybe. Feigned annoyance in my direction. Held his breath and prayed it would pass.

It didn’t.


Once upon a time…
You lived another life.
That was then and now is now.

Cringe a little. Grimace. Feign a little annoyance in my direction. Hold your breath and pray it will pass.

It won’t.

You’ve danced in the kitchen…..

24 comments:

paulo said...

It's good to be you. Most people pretend their whole lives. Some people just can't.

skinnylittleblonde said...

Every day brings change, big and small. Some of the changes bring us closer to our true selves & some pull us back. Usually those that pull us away from our own truth cause us to eventually make us a choice to make a change. As evidenced by some of the choices our youth are trying to make, these changes can feel alienating... when really they are grounding. Hugs, love & unconditional support to you, your son & the beautiful people you are. ILYSVM

she said...

that's exactly how we discover who we are i think

trying on different clothes
trying out different people
different jobs

and we can't know what's real without having experienced its contrast

but once you get a taste of what's real
there's no turning back

all steps there on out, are moving you forward

look in the mirror -

say "it's so nice to finally meet me! -be me!"

and in doing so, you help others do the same.

great read/thanks! ~s.

Anne said...

You are awesome and beautiful just the way you are. :)

Bardouble29 said...

I love dancing in my kitchen...I dated a guy that used to get mad at me because I will dance where ever I happen to be standing.

I will never stop dancing...

Dan said...

What a wonderfully written piece! Delightful.

Incidentally, I still wear pointy toed high heels and perfumed matching pantsuits.

Just kidding. :)

Fuzzylogic said...

Good for you Singleton for finding something you loved and daring to make the change.Ouch on the high heeled toe bunions,I have been there!

SpongyBones said...

Dance on in whatever shoes you want!

singleton said...

paulo...."some people can't"! You got that!

SLB...God, I love you! And that sisterly tink, reaching out and you're standing right there with the right words at the right moment. Thank you, sister love!

She.."but once you get a taste of what's real
there's no turning back"...You have no idea what these words mean to me... peace, love....

anne...And you darling, too!

bardouble...dance, always, wherever and whenever you can, swirling, twirling, feeling the love....

Dan...I just knew you did! :)

fuzzy...hee!hee! I was exagerating about the shoes a little! My boss never would let me wear flip-flops to work!

singleton said...

Spongy....We're typing in tink! Barefootin' it is best!

JR's Thumbprints said...

I used to wear a suit and a tie to work. Then I asked myself, "Who am I trying to impress? I'm teaching a bunch of convicted felons." Now I dress casual.

Orhan Kahn said...

Very sweet :)

singleton said...

jr's....exactly!

orhan...TY

Lizard Princess said...

I was dancing in the kitchen this morning to the Grateful Dead in my slippers- that's all me!

Thanks for the validation and inspiration!

skinnylittleblonde said...

I'm dancing in my chair. I have to tinkle & I'm running late for work. the phone rang with a Florida area code. I thought it was our past, our present and our future calling. I answered it and it was a collection call, but for someone named 'silly.' Wrong number, maybe....but I think it was a 'tink.' ILY

Matt said...

Ahhhh, I would have grimaced, too! :)

singleton said...

lizard princess....Totally validated! Keep on dancin'....

SLB...I tried to call you in maniac traffic, with naked eyes to tell you......
our past, our present, and the future is calling....
I'm puttin' up a For Sale Sign and movin' to the beach!

Matt....Oh yeah, you would have! Must be the pointy toed thing! :)

mindy said...

isn't it nice when you become who you are. :)

singleton said...

mindy......and who you've always been....
peace, love, and deja vue

kj said...

dancing in the kitchen,

that is a great line, singleton. really nice piece of writing and i'm glad i read it this morning. there may be alternatives to not being ones self, but they don't seem very solid....

hey! when you have a chance check out my blog. i finished the "favorite words" story, and i have to admit i think it came out pretty cool! you'll see yourself in it. and thanks for your words.

:)

Reflections said...

Been there ok! No matter how hard I have tried I just can't stop being me. I just dance to different music I guess. Great piece!

singleton said...

kj.. I spied that in the wee hours! A delight! You are so talented weaving your whinsical little web of words!

peace,loce, and always, always dance in the kitchen!

reflections....the beat of different music has a rhythm of it's on! And it rocks!

JustRun said...

Yup! And once you do, you can't go back.

singleton said...

justrun....And you don't wanna!