Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Letters from Where We Left Off....

I remember as if it were yesterday, those fateful blue eyes.

Standing in my Sunday pajamas in the cold February wind....I slid the credit card through the "fill her up at the pump" slot. Nothing happened. I turned the card upside down and tried again. Nothing. I imagined the "E" glowing brighter on the dashboard. "Damn"!

I looked once. Both ways. No one else was in the parking lot or at the pumps. I bolted for the double doors. This is a really small town. Please God don't let anyone see me in my pajamas, with my "I've been up all night" face on! I'm not vain, but I had a hangover and it had been a long and sad 36 hours leading up to this moment....this I can't even coast home on hope moment.

Kimbies and Papa and I had spent the day before cleaning out Nadine's house. Selling a lifetime of love at a garage sale to benefit her children. Smiling at strangers while our hearts broke. And then we went out drinking. Big time. We laughed. We cried. We made new best friends. We kissed the nicotine stained Sky. Waved at Nadine up there! Over us, watching. And now it was the morning after.....

And I just wanted to go home.

I didn't see him bop through the side door. Full of himself, and Sunday Spirit. But I felt those eyes, those fateful blue eyes from heaven.....rap,tap,tapping on my new day. And so I turned just in time to catch his smile. His Mick Jagger smile.

And I laughed.

For the first time in forever.

And it wasn't long before I danced. For the first time in forever.

And lived. For the first time in forever.

Endings are sometimes beginnings. Beginnings are sometimes endings.

And sometimes the circle goes on and on and on.....

I should have known if I was going to be late for work this morning, I was going to be really late.

I felt that rap,tap,tapping on my new day....
Just before I saw those fateful blue eyes again.....

14 comments:

Shimmerrings said...

Lol, I once got caught in my pajamas and housecoat, when I was taking my son to school and we ended up in a 3 car pileup ... as always, beautifully told and very heartfelt...

Maithri said...

Oh my friend!!!

How exciting....

You deserve a thousand mick jagger smiles and first time in forever dances...

You deserve love wrapped in wildness and peace and hands warm from dreaming,

And somehow i know...

Its yours...

Much love, So much love
wild heart,

M

karma lennon said...

I love new beginnings. And sometimes I even love the endings. :)

singleton said...

shimmerings....LOL! Not at the pileup, but at the mere fact that we girls just gotta do what we gotta do....
And you know we're gonna get caught! Miss you, btw!

Maithri....So funny...
that deja vue in the morning sun...
A long and winding,
real life is stranger than fiction,
story has
taken up the last few years
and then,
there,
in an unexpected moment,
those blue eyes
as impromptu and "sent" as
they were the very first time!
Reminding me,
yes....
to Dance Again....
like there's no tomorrow...

Much Love!

Karma....
Ahhhh... I know, little one....
the circle....

Peace~love.....
It's a new year!

she said...

beautifully told story; as always singtome

that smile might of been lost on anyone else, but not you

and what a precious visual.. the up all night face, in pajamas, at the gas pump


magic only works for people who let it in

love, peace! to you & yours ~s.

singleton said...

she...
I think you know better than anyone the very magic of letting it in....
One of the most profound lessons I ever learned was....
It's there...
but only when you see through open eyes....

I lived a long life before I discovered living,
before I remembered that what made childhood magical was not so much our naiveness...
as it was our willingness to drink up the moment...
and to be free!

Much peace and love to you and yours, my friend,
may the New year be blessed,
oh, so blessed!

karma lennon said...

I miss you too, Singy. Did I not give you my blog addy?? I'm sorry!!! It's:

www.gypsygirlwanders.blogspot.com

I hope that helps!! Peace, love always.

Skinny said...

Sweet Sister Sing...
Oh, how I adore you!Moments, sweet sister, sometimes we gotta skate right over them, through them, as you did at the garage sale, and sometimes we steal them where we can, stretch them out & soak them up for all they are worth...and moments like that are well-worth being late to work for. xoxoxox

kj said...

oh my. this this present tense non-fiction? whether yes or no, i wish this for you over and over in every way. and if you don't mind i wish it for me too.

please come see me, girl. it's been too long!

:)

singleton said...

karma....
Thanks baby! Yes, I lost you....in the sea of no~internet land, lost in life.....But I never stopped thinking about you, little one!

Sweetsisterlove....
soaking....
life is short...
we have to stretch the good times out....
"rolling like thunder".....
and somethings are worth living over and over again....
butterflies are like that!

KJ....
Real life, real time. The bluest eyes...It always has been...I'd be a lousy fiction writer...lost somewhere between Harreliquin romances and Stephen King! I miss you too, girlfriend! I'm on line now...and if the computer guy will just "clean" this baby up so I can wander without getting frozen everystep I take...It'll be homecoming, again! Muah!

Peace~love
It makes the world round......

kj said...

Oh singleton, wow! wonderful! there's hope for me too!

xo!

Justgivemepeace said...

KJ...There is always hope, sweetie....
That's the promise of tomorrow!

And for us all....
The magic of yesterday that lets us believe....

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